Sunday, September 17, 2006
noticed something? the cloud has a hole. and light is passing through it.well. there's still tonnes of things to do today. and i haven't started on any.
yesterday was a bz day, no time no do any hw.
today i woke up and went to the gym with my mum and sis. then i came home and decided to use the com while waiting for lunch. lol. that's slacking.
after lunch i slept cos i was really tired. slacking again.
i woke up and now here i am. looking at my maths and blogging.
this week is going to be a horrible week. i have so many tests. omg. and what's my dad doing now? he's sleeping.. My elder sis? playing minesweepers. My younger sis? went to friend's house to play. Eldest sis? god knows where she went. My mother? Working from home.
the thought of the tests gives me the creeps. it gives the whole class the creeps. AND, does the school give a damn? NO. do the teachers give a damn? NO.
hmm. let me see, the school just wants us to score. the teachers just want to get over and done with the tests. but.. but why shove them all into a week??
does it seem to us that we can take it? your dont even care if we went mad. maybe, we'll all turn mad and run around the school like total lunatics. maybe we get too stressed up, and we turn to drugs. hmm.
who's fault? hmm. let me see. our fault? cos we can't control our emotions and stuffs? duh, of cos not. its e people who gives the tests and decides to have them all in one week.
let me see... higher chinese tests gives me the biggest creeps. i can't afford to do badly after failing for the whole of the first half of the year. i have to study study study, and read a bloody book which is boring, and do assessments.
DnT test.. hmm. i dont recall doing well in any.
Lit test... i have to memorise quotes? from the whole novel. plus studying other subjects.. omg.
Geog test?... memorise, or just read through. wait.. do i have e time?
Chem test?.. memorise memorise memorise. oh the joy of memorising.....
i forgot if i had any more tests... hmm. i dont think there's anymore.
i told my hcl tuition teacher that im having tests all in one week just before the exams, and she says that its stupid.
we are supposed to be studying and stuffs, and i know, even though studying for these tests do help us in studying for the end of year papers but.. ur stressing us to much.
do we look like we like the thinking of having tests this week, and.. hey, u realise its ur final term examination.
hmm... lets see... we still have projects not really done, and its just.. so many things are suddenly making us hesitate to study.
i dont feel like studying anymore. i dont even want to touch my higher chinese book. i dont even want to touch my lit book. i just want to sleep and dream of happy stuffs. instead of facing reality and go through this torture.
do i have a chance to do this? NO. why? bcos singapore has too much hope on us and they think we can tahan.
we're still teenagers. YOUNG teenagers. i still want to play and have fun. yet there's long hours of school, and higher chinese tests. even i dont want to study for ting xie anymore. i take 3 hours to study for it, and other ppl just look through and hey!, they passed.
and then, when i study hard for my tests, and finally, i did fairly well, and passed my tests, my higher chinese teacher doesn't even give a damn. she doesn't even compliment me. and when i fail, hey, she starts to nag.
even my parents and tuition teacher is a whole lot better than her.
i mean, what do u want me to do? get full marks then you'll praise me? no encouragement at all when i failed. just nagging nagging nagging and saying that i dont work hard enough. i know i didn't work to my fullest, but i still tried. and i'm still trying.
and then now u give us this lousy relief teacher who can't teach and AP everyday. and i can't even understand what's she's saying la. i'm so gonna flunk my exams if she was my real teacher..
what's wrong with trying when your just dont see it. what's wrong with teachers nowadays? some are good, but some are just so lousy. not lousy in teaching. but lousy in seeing the good points in people.
if teachers dont give a damn about us, then of cos, us students won't give a damn in studying for ur tests.
ur think study for so many tests very fun meh? ur think we enjoy it? who will?
cant the school, teachers, or somebody just spare a thought for us?
there's tonnes of things that i still want to say, but i think if i did, i'll get into trouble. teachers shouldn't go around to read our blogs. its an invading our privacy. if they dont allow us to complain about them, then we'll just might as well complain to moe. if they are worried about other people despise our school after reading what people blog, then change yourselves to make us like you.
you can't just go around and read our blogs and then complain to the principal or whoever. we still have the rights to show that we aren't happy. we still have the rights to let ppl know that we are suffering. if we couldn't tell anyone.. then we'll all kill ourselves, cut our wrists, or take drugs. its common if we have no where to turn to.
always a twemasekian `4:24:00 pm
